Where Frustration and Faith meet.......

I'd love to report that our Home Study is complete, but alas, we're still waiting. The last few days have been very discouraging and frustrating. Our social worker has been dragging her feet a bit. Based on our converstion yesterday, I think she honestly believes that *W* would be better off left in Thailand! This is so unbelievable to me! Our social worker is unsaved, so much of how we live as a family is foreign to her. We speak freely and openly of God and His direction and guidance in our lives, and she just doesn't get it. She truely believes that I am incapable of contributing anything to our family and that Chris is forced to do everything. She keeps asking how he (meaning Chris) is going to handle everything. She keeps suggesting that this is too much for him. He forgot some papers that he was going to fax to her yesterday. So, she took that opportunity to go into a whole discussion about how Chris forgetting the papwers is a sign that we should reconsider. She insisted that families do quit during or after the home study. HE JUST FORGOT THE PAPERS!!! He left them on the counter in the kitchen. Sorry, this is my vent session. I believe that God is going to show Himself strong in this process. I also believe that Donna must see Christ in us, so I've been quiet and not said much. We just calmly restate our intentions to adopt *W* and try to move on as quickly as possible. Keep in mind that we are paying for this process. Fortunately, the home study is guided by laws and therefor she can't really say anything in the study itself. It's not guided by her opinions. I just wonder who she thinks has raised these boys, taught them to read, and takes care of them when their dad is working. I never want to take anything away from Chris. He is a wonderful husband and father. God could not have done better than Chris, when He chose my husband. However, I do contribute to our marriage and parenting. I think I'm resenting her attitude towards me, and I'm really praying for God to help me through that. He is my avenger. We are believing that our social worker will walk away from our after placement visits with a smile. She will see God's hand and the miracle that our little *W* is at peace and very content. Hopefully, my next post will be that our home study has been approved!